The first day of the rest of my life

So here it starts : I took 6 months off from work, and registered myself to an accounting company.
I am officially a Freelance Illustrator ! Champomy !

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Of course this decision come with a big load of stress, but nicely enough, without any doubts.

Something i've always agreed with

TREASURE: Are You Ready to Change your Life ?

Tired of beeing passive, or even feel like victim, you want to solve conflicts in a clever way,

you want to improve yourself, achieve your goals, and be the best version of who you are ?

Then you should so read that book !

(pdf and audiobook) HERE

The Bright Side

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"Hand In My Pocket"

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

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Tonight when i got home, i found a receite to go and pick up a package.
So i just dropped my things, and ran back to the post office, with only my ipod, my ID and my keys in my hand.
I went there, picked up the package, and as i was walking back home, that song came up.
And it felt like such an appropriate soundtrack for that precise moment of my day / life.
And i looked at my hands, and one was holding the box full of presents from my mum, and the other hand was holding music, a valid ID, and keys to a great apartment.

And i got to think about all the good things i have in life, the first one beeing to be healthy.

In fact, life spoiled me, with childhood drama, to make me deep, a peculiar mind, to make me inspired, a strong head, to keep me going, but a tender (very, very, very tender) heart, to make me experience things like no other..
And on the top of that, scandinavian adventures, with a man who challenges me in the most constructive and beautiful way ever.
And in these crazy times, from the top of my endless emotional roller coaster, even for 5 minutes, i felt happy.

i want to feel like this !!!

Who am i ??

I was recently talking with a friend, who was worried about beeing a copy of someone he loves and not knowing 'who he was'.

He told me i seemed to know who i was. I think it's funny to see what image people have of themself, and of others. because i feel like i am looking for myself everyday. I told him that when i was confused about who i was, or who i 'should' be, i always thought of the kid me:

then i have no doubts about who i want to be.
and you know what they say : "you are what you love"

then i am:

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When a song talks to you

You know the way sometimes a song just talks to you, as if you were the only one concerned by it, or as if you could have written it word by word..

well today it was: Threads by Portishead

"Better if I could find the words to say
Whenever I take a choice it turns away

I'm worn, tired of my mind
I'm worn out, thinking of why
I'm always so unsure

I battle my thoughts I find I can't explain
I've travelled so far but somehow feel the same

I'm worn, tired of my mind
I'm worn out, thinking of why
I'm always so unsure
I'm always so unsure

I am alive when I sleep
Why am I not in all that I got?
I can't find no one to blame

Stand, stand, damned one
Damned one
Damned one
Damned one

I am one
Damned
One

Where do I go? "

I learnt today that my A Home for Alice show in Melbourne got canceled, cause the gallery closed down. 

It's not a bad thing if i think about it, cause it only means the first show will take place here in Stockholm, later this year, and that people will have more time to post their homes, but it's more like a symbol, like a disapointment.. and as i am already going round and round in my head about everything these days, this news is not making in any better...

i think i need a sign..

Sunny Walk / Serious Talk

The sun is back in Copenhagen, and the light is so strong ! 

(the sun rises at 3:40 AM and sets at 10:50 PM !)

so we went for a walk with Monika, in the private houses areas of Frederiksberg. It was really nice :) So many huge houses..

We got to realise this was one of the last walks together, as Monika is going back home at the end of June, and then i am moving to Stockholm at the end of July...

We talked about our expectations for the future, our choices and decisions that had to confront surprises of life..

We talked about how strange it was to be friends, me coming from France, her coming from Poland, meeting here in Denmark, her going home and me to Sweden...

And as she would say "you never know what's going to happen" so let's hope for the best !

What will i become without my sweet rabbit ?

We went for coffee, and she encouraged me to go to the counter to change my tea, cause it has the weirdest taste; you really had to to think "dead rat" before drinking it.. it may sound easy to do, but i have some social issues... i am the kind that pays and shut up. but this time i went there and i even asked for my money back !! it felt nice not to be the sucker for once..