◊◊◊Since i am a kid, my mom always tells me "you're always up and down, your mood, your grades..
("tu es toujours en dents de scie") very much like this
Growing up, it got stronger and stronger, with many new symptoms.
Now i know, it's Cyclothymia.
* I am an emotion sponge.
* I am very creative
* I am extremely sensitive
* I analyse situations and people's behaviour all the time
* I pay attention to details a lot
* I read between the lines
* My highs are too high
* My lows are too low
* I am hyper reactive to eveything
* My self-estime is non-existent
* I have panick attacks (recent symptom)
* I feel so gloomy when comes the night or the end of the weekend
* I feel the need for protection a lot
* My expections are very high (with life and people)
* My mood can change in function of the weather
* I live in my own world
* I see and feel things that the others don't
* My senses are overly developped some days ("no Alice, you can't physically smell hope in the air !" "yes i can !")
* I excuse myself for existing most of the time
* I am always affraid to appear broken
* I can cut myself from the world for few days, and friends don't always understand it
* I have big emotional comprehension
* I feel people's emotions and vibes, more and more...
it's not easy everyday,
but i like the fact that it's so intense to experience.
{pour les français intéressés par le sujet, émission sur la cyclothymie à podcaster ici }
