Quit Your Day Job

So, finally today, after 6 month off from work, i had to decide if i'd come back, or if i'd quit.
and... I QUIT !!!

And like all things that are super scary in life, this was not when you actually simply do it.

The Truth

About Freelancing clients

Before Deadline
When they're waiting for your design:


After deadline
When you're supposed to get your money:

Hemma

I find it very cosy to work at home these days..

The Curse

The past 2 weeks, i've been working at home, trying to start my real career.
And if it's a lot of work to organize your tasks, finding suppliers and distributors.. i find it even harder not to be affected by the perpetual roller coaster i'm on, when it comes to inspiration and self belief.
Here is what my weeks looked like:

Monday i know exactly what i'm gonna do ! i'm i'm so convinced !
Tuesday i'm what ?! this has no quality what so ever ! how disapointing !
Wednesday i feel lost. I don't what to think or do..
Thursday i get a new idea "this is so much better" i develop it.
Friday i continue researching like hell about that new idea, references, material, possible targets..
Monday that first idea was so cool !! how could i hate/ignore it !! i work on it !
Tuesday this ? it's ridiculous and boring..
Wednesday nervous breakdown !

and constantly, the "It has been done already" complex in my head.
The fear of being one among hundreds of similar thoughts.
a bit like this:

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But like everythime i become aware of a pattern i have, i tend to calm down about it, i know i'm down, but i also know i'll be up again in 2 days, just before i be down again... so lets not feel guilty or stressed. Let's just learn how to work with it.