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The Curse

The past 2 weeks, i've been working at home, trying to start my real career.
And if it's a lot of work to organize your tasks, finding suppliers and distributors.. i find it even harder not to be affected by the perpetual roller coaster i'm on, when it comes to inspiration and self belief.
Here is what my weeks looked like:

Monday i know exactly what i'm gonna do ! i'm i'm so convinced !
Tuesday i'm what ?! this has no quality what so ever ! how disapointing !
Wednesday i feel lost. I don't what to think or do..
Thursday i get a new idea "this is so much better" i develop it.
Friday i continue researching like hell about that new idea, references, material, possible targets..
Monday that first idea was so cool !! how could i hate/ignore it !! i work on it !
Tuesday this ? it's ridiculous and boring..
Wednesday nervous breakdown !

and constantly, the "It has been done already" complex in my head.
The fear of being one among hundreds of similar thoughts.
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But like everythime i become aware of a pattern i have, i tend to calm down about it, i know i'm down, but i also know i'll be up again in 2 days, just before i be down again... so lets not feel guilty or stressed. Let's just learn how to work with it.